FaLLiNG STaRS

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 14:02:42 GMT

all i want is for you to show me how it feels to be in love

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 13:19:50 GMT

friday was fun took pics wish i took my camera on saturday because it was soo much funner then friday...but i forgot it at home *sigh*...

ben at cusc already drunk

amanda ben haha everyone is drunk haha as you can tell

nick with his tequllia shots..haha

haha i think he is enjoying his drinks

our table at sahara haha with our drunks..haha later on that night it was cover with drinks

jess and amanda..amanda oh soo sexy

beth jess and amanda...dont they look hott

haha them again looking hott as always

ben his balls itched

i dont know why but i was taking pics of cabs

an other cab in the cab line trying to get a cab to woodlands to hang out with people

the trees in woodlands haha i dont know why i took this pics but it looks kewl

this is my emo "cousin" lee i love him

my emo cousin again...posing and smoking a cig at the side of the street in the middle of the night at woodlands

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 15:32:37 GMT

You are sad because of your fear

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Wed, 26 Oct 2005 10:29:22 GMT

I love you carl...you make me happy

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 14:57:20 GMT

i feel like writing a long blog so lets see if i can sorry

if it sounds weird and i doubt anyone would read all

of it hahaa well here goes...

lately i feel every emotional been listening to emo music

and a why it helps me deal...been talking to friends...you

know who are your real friends when they are there for

you when you need them the most and are very supportive

and i am soo thankful for them...in a whay i feel like a fool

for believeing in something for soo long that wasnt even

worth it at the end...and i fool myself with my childish

girly dreams about this one guy who lives in an other country but

they up side is that i get to see him over the summer soo there

is a plus side of my life...i have really hit rock bottom and only

thing that i can hold on to is my family friends and faith as always...i

dont know where i be with out those things specially faith...i hate

when people make fun of god and chruch and shit...but i love god

and i dont say anything because people have their right to speech but

so do i so why dont i speak up? i guess in a way i am scared...oh

well i dont know why i am talking about faith right now...i didnt realise

how people change over time and hard work relationships are...and

just the little things can set people off...and how hurtful the people's

games are...i wish we didnt play the games we play a person always

ended up hurting...and i give a lot of props for people who can do

long distances relationship...it is just hard work for a relationship period

and for them to be soo far apart must be even harder i dont think i

can be strong enough to handle that but i guess i could deal if i was

in love with the person...i cant wait for wednesday half day and i

dont know what i will be doing but i will hanging out with egan and

so i know that will be killer fun...lol and the weekend we are going

to have a sleep over but i dont know whos house haha...lately i been

finding my self thinking of the past to my first love carl and how much

i miss him...we still keep in touch and deep down i think we are turly

meant to be which freaks me out soo much...you have no idea...i

caught some stupid stombach virus which everytime i eat something

i threw it up you have no idea how much that sucks...and i hope

my parents will let me stay home tomarow i feel soo dizzy as well...

well i think i will end now its almost 11 pm and i need my rest i guess...

so i will talk to you guys later

mahal

ps you freaking suck </3

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 05:44:30 GMT

i gave you the all of me but now that its over you wont get the best of me...

even though the sun will never shine again i will always look to a brigther day when you and me were happy together...and if you think this is about you... you are mistaken my friend this is for someone special in california

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 14:07:50 GMT

yo guys check out my photo shop skills before

after

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 13:43:51 GMT

more pics :)

I got bored

hahaha ugly pic of me eh?

dude i have big eyes

i like this pic..i really enjoy my new hair cut

i look sad but i tried to smile if you can notice

too busy staring at the tv

hmm eyes kinda red there

yes i do too! haha random pic of a post of chad

one of my favoirte baseball player ichiro suzuki

like my hair cut i do

better pic less bury

hmmmm.....

this beautiful girl is carly

Pics Pics Pics!!!

Wed, 21 Sep 2005 14:23:48 GMT

hey my loves...

i just got a new digital camera so except like pictures with every blog now!!.

mahal

ben during free

breda during french what is he looking at?

a burnt cashew in chem class it was kewl looking

cookies brittany made me for my birthday

jordan

jess being a silly goose during break

matty thumbs up to you too haha

nathan he was cold

me hahaha goofing aroudn during free

nick he has crazy hair!!!..lol

Pc and Ronnie..hahha pc looks dead...and ronnie looks sad

eric hahahaa doing pre calc during free :S

pc and michelle...hahaa pc soo emo!

me bored during free

me doing the "v"...philipino style!

its shurti....argh

christa in english with her chips

its claudio!!!!..i love this dude

its daniel..hahaha

its daniel again looky kinda eiffy!

pc and breda......look at those smiles

me and tiffany!!..argh look at my hair!!

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 10:18:10 GMT

hey my loves

today is my 17th birtnday

mahal

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 13:55:21 GMT

hello my loves

been a long ass time since i last wrote in here well to keep u updated..my birthday is coming up..i am sick as a dog..and yeah..i am going to get my hair cut tommarow i cant wait i will post up pics when i get it done anyways...i really have nothing much to say but i am going to bed now cause i am soo freaking tired and must be rested because this weekend will be killer...so talk to you guys later..peace

NIKKI!!

picture time yes!!

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 16:39:49 GMT

hey my loves

its picture time

me and cookie messing around

sanghoon being himself

me and sanghoon looking tall!!

me and my cousin lee hahaha not really my cousin!!

cookie and sanghoon looking like a gay couple

cookie and cream!!..just kidding

taking a picture of cooking taking a picture of me with his phone

cookie my free/french buddy

me and this awesome girl brittany!!

i got bored in psyc class wrote on my hand

Mon, 15 Aug 2005 10:08:35 GMT

first day of school was awesome..holla if you feel the same!!!

Sun, 14 Aug 2005 04:13:16 GMT

hey my loves..
back with josh again ima soo happy me means the world to me and its so much better now then it was before!!..

normal?

Tue, 09 Aug 2005 11:11:37 GMT

sometimes i life is just a big blur..you know..no matter how bad it gets...why do i always smile...it makes me feel kinda fake smiling all the time...cause i mean its not how i really feel...but i just think its a habit...to smile i got sooo use to smiling now i just cant stop...i think i have handle myself pretty well with this josh thing...claudio thinks i have been..he is such a great friend..always there to talk to and listen...i appreciate having him as a friend...well i am so bored right now and i am going to go for now..hahaha talk to you guys later..........

mahal

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 09:41:48 GMT

hey my loves...

bad news...well the hales are back and what i thought i was going to be the best night of my life to see josh but well he dumped me...i guess being away from some one and not be able to to talk to them people change i guess i really cant do anything about it...but i feel like a fool you know i know he would change but maybe i did but i guess maybe its for the best..but when i got home i was under soo much stress had to go to the hospital but i wont into detail on it......well my sister and i have a long talk and made me feel better

mahal

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 14:20:19 GMT

hey been spending time with my sister before she leaves its amazing how much we are getting a long hahaha i guess i am really going to miss her when she was gone

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 07:07:59 GMT

stayed home to day from work cus i couldnt open my left eye at all..like it was permently closed and swollon i guess allergies newaise this picture is for nina so check it out..it might bring a smile to your face!!...

Sun, 24 Jul 2005 10:10:05 GMT

hey my loves....
so bored...i am at home...argh..went out yesturday...and couldnt find anyone to hang out with about to go home til i ran in to blanch...i was supose to meet jasmine but she was late then leo i waited for an hour so i was walking to go back home ran into blanch and she hang out with me for a lil before she went home..and then i got a fone call from jasmine..and met up and eat subways and play pool...and then went to this fashon...then me and jasmine decide that we are going shopping next weekend hahahaha i cant wait i bet it will be awesome..i want so boho clothes..haha..

xo
Nikki

DADDY!!

Sun, 17 Jul 2005 04:23:24 GMT

bad news..

my dad had a heart attack last night and went to the hosptial...

mahal kita
Nikki

summer

Sat, 16 Jul 2005 03:15:25 GMT

well summer is okay been working just really missing josh..well he be back in about 2 weeks i hope just trying to keep busy with work and friends and try not to think of him....its kind of hard....so yeah i have been talking to my kuya jr lately and i miss him soo mucho hahahaa it has been great talking to him..he hasnt been online in such a long time..hahaha newaise i better be going i have to meet jasmine at far east at 1 hahaha

Nikki

Poems and writings

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 08:33:19 GMT

Here are a few poems and writings I have been working on
She Waits
The sun shines through the window she waits//
She waits for him to return to her//
The trees outside turn from green to red, brown, and orange//
Then the trees were bared cover with snow//
Then spring comes and the trees are full of life//
She is still there watching waiting never losing hope//
Days go by//
Then weeks//
Weeks turn to months//
Months soon became years//
She sits there at the window never moves an inch//
She knows he will come back to her like he promise//
Then one day a knock at the door was this him?//
Will he recognize her after all these years?//
Her skin no longer smooth and soft but wrinkles//
And her hair is gray and white no longer red//
When she opens the door a man in uniform//
He said "sorry I am late"//
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Without You
The days are long//
The nights are lonely//
Days are hard without you//
Dirty room; still in bed//
Why go out if you're not here//
Love is in the air makes me cry//
I want to hold you again//
All that is left is the smell on your clothes//
That you left behind//
Thoughts in my head "be strong"//
People telling me to hold on//
But how can I?
When I miss you and love you so damn much//
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Look At Me
Surrounded, but yet still alone//
Does any one notice me?//
Am I really here?//
Am I really real?//
If I am why don't people see me?//
It’s like I am a ghost//
A person who doesn't matter//
I just want to yell//
LOOT AT ME//
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Mess Up Youth??
Lost teeth, report cards, and finger painting//
Good memories of the innocent youthful past//
Where life was simple and clean//
And out mission was to have fun and learn//
Where we found our identity//
Who we were and what is to become//
New memories are being formed now//
Sex, Violence, love, and hate//
The media corrupting our easily molded winds//
Businesses who say "sex sales"//
Companies trying to secretly hook us on their products//
Cigarettes, alcohol, and drugs//
Violence now cleverly disguised in cartoons//
Ruining our minds no love and teachings of hate//
Not only cartoons but also the news//
But they say it "educates" yeah right//
That’s why the news has more hate then love//
And people ask what’s going on in the world today?//
And people do a thing//
Now adults say there is no help for us//
They blame us for things we do//
But where do we learn these things from?//
Parents blaming everyone but themselves//
But we all know whose fault it is//
For the mess up youth of the nation//
But who runs the business, companies, and media?//
Who teach us hate and not love?//
Teach us ignorance and not understanding//
Teach us war and not faith?//
So it is not a mess up youth//
But mess up adults//
All by Nicolet Jane Dougherty

4th of July

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 10:23:22 GMT

hahaha it was fun spending the day with jasmine haha..

happy 5 month

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 06:57:30 GMT

hey my loves i got a txt from josh from la...he was using his moms cell didnt want to txt back thought since it was his mom fone it wouldnt be a good idea...well..he told me happy 6 months...but he doesnt know its our 5 months...hahaha not our 6 men!!..hahaha its okay aslong as he remembers the date..lol newaise he said he would email..an other saturday its raining i hate when it rains cus i dont feel like going out with it rains...well josh said me would email me so i just wait for that...hahaha..ima going to go back to eating and watching tv

mahal

i miss josh

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 10:02:17 GMT

i miss josh so much hahaha i just wrote him a very very very long email well work is getting better i am hardly bored and more..and the days go by quicker this is good cause that means that josh will be coming home faster..hahaha..newaise...right now ima eating sooo hungry..lost so much weight its crazy..well i gata go for now i gata watch my shows like OTH!!..hahahah chad michael murray is soo hott!!...

mahal kita